They
say change is the only constant in life… if it’s so than wags had a lot of
constancy in their lives.
Some
of you already knows the last news from our home, that we won’t stay in current
club… things went as they went – we had a wish to stay, but there is nothing we
can do just from one side, both sides have to agree… you know how it goes.
So,
here we are almost at the end of the season – 43 days left if I am totally
precise. Knowing that we have to move, but without a club.
A
little bit stressful if I am honest to you… I try not to show it but last days
stress and nervousness are stronger than my inner voice that say to me that I
have to stay strong and not to show Igor my feelings about our situation – but
he noticed of course that I am arguing a lot more than usual and of course he
noticed that I am under the stress.
But is
that good?
There
are two parts inside of me that are battling all the time – one side (bad one I
guess) try to convince me that I have a right to be under the pressure and that
is normal that I feel stress because we are gonna move again and we don’t know
yet where and I will have to quit job. I will have to say goodbye to city (from
which I didn’t expect lot but it brought a lot), to my friends (especially hard
will be say goodbye to Ina & Csilla), to my co-workers (Judith, Anni, Susi,
David, Kathy, Pia & of course my sweet boss Katherina), to my grumpy but
always helpful neighbours Helga & Tomas, to my favourite restaurant (Niko)
and to my beautiful nature in Strombach & Halb insel.
The
other side in me (definitely positive one) is talking to me that I have to stay
calm, that change will bring something even more better in our life, that I
have to be supportive for Igor because so it will be easier for both of us. The
positive side is showing me that I cannot always control everything, that
sometimes I have to go with the flow and have a faith in the fact that
everything happens for the reason and that even if we don’t have a club yet –
that is just because on the best things we always have to wait a little bit
longer.
What
do you think which side in me will win?
The
one that I feed more – and I decided to feed the positive one – I had a talk
with myself (sounds weird but it’s always so helpful – they call it “self
talk”) and convince myself that I am in stress because I am a control freak and
that it drives me crazy that I don’t know what will happen in next few months,
where I am gonna live, which country will be, will I have to learn new
language, will it be good for Igor… and that in real I don’t need all this
(pointless) stress and pressure – because it doesn’t really matters where we
move – it is up to me – how I will feel in new city/country/club and me, myself
I am the only one that can make myself happy and satisfied. No matter where we
go and no matter when we will know, everything will be just okay like always
and everything will pass just smoothly. (But anyway cross your fingers that we
get great club in great city).
In
next column read about: Plan for packing, what to keep – what to throw, Goodbye
party for co-workers & one for players, sorting things for summer break and
sorting things that I won’t need, bureaucracy,
apartmant, …
kot da bi o sebi brala, js sm pomoje tud tak "control freak", čis sm živčna če nevem kako bo en teden naprej,moram met use pod kontrolo :D haha
ReplyDeleteuglavnm, držim pesti da se use obrne po vajinih željah! :) xx
Heehehe, Mushei, vidis sva ze dve ;)
DeleteVerjamem da bo vse se super izpadlo in imam obcutek da bodo kmalu dobre novice ;)
Pozdravcek!
Kust keep feed the positive one!:)
ReplyDeleteI will, Stasha! Thank you
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Ania, love always wins, no matter what. Everybody gets nervous once in a time or lots of times in relationship...but that's just the way it is...and how it's gone be in life...B.
ReplyDeleteTrue ;) Thank you for your support!
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Spet se selita? JOJ, to športno življenje je pa res nepredvidljivo :/ Upam, da dobita super lokacijo in klub!
ReplyDeleteJa, js tudi drzim pesti, da bo ena metropola ali pa vsaj malce vecje od Gummersbacha, hehe ;)
DeletePol je pa ze cas, da prideta s Tejo na obisk ;)
This what are you describing is more human nature than control freaking. You are reacting as all of us who are moving around the world. My next move will happen next year, without knowing where and passion to freak out of fear is starting all ready. Sure you are grumpy and annoyed. It is reasonable, just don't let it make you more dissapointed. I surely understand your acknowledgment of loosing job you love - it piss me off too everytime :).. Keep your head up and hope it will be a "fashion-sin" new destination! Good luck!
DeleteThis what are you describing is more human nature than control freaking. You are reacting as all of us who are moving around the world. My next move will happen next year, without knowing where and passion to freak out of fear is starting all ready. Sure you are grumpy and annoyed. It is reasonable, just don't let it make you more dissapointed. I surely understand your acknowledgment of loosing job you love - it piss me off too everytime :).. Keep your head up and hope it will be a "fashion-sin" new destination! Good luck!
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this what are describing is more human nature than control freaking. You are reacting as all of us who are moving around the world. My next move will happen next year, without knowing where and passion to freak out of fear is starting all ready. Sure you are grumpy and annoyed (your man will get a point when you settle down) - "nothing unreasonable" would say my man. I surly understand your acknowledgment about quieting your job - it piss me off too 9over and over) :D... Keep your head up and hope for next sin-fashionable city. Good Luck!
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Coloreyes... I want to know more about you.. I just spend almost an hour reading your blog... It's so great when there are people who really understand your situation.. hope we stay in touch! ;)
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