They say change is the only constant in life… if it’s so than wags had a lot of constancy in their lives.
Some of you already knows the last news from our home, that we won’t stay in current club… things went as they went – we had a wish to stay, but there is nothing we can do just from one side, both sides have to agree… you know how it goes.
So, here we are almost at the end of the season – 43 days left if I am totally precise. Knowing that we have to move, but without a club.
A little bit stressful if I am honest to you… I try not to show it but last days stress and nervousness are stronger than my inner voice that say to me that I have to stay strong and not to show Igor my feelings about our situation – but he noticed of course that I am arguing a lot more than usual and of course he noticed that I am under the stress.
But is that good?
There are two parts inside of me that are battling all the time – one side (bad one I guess) try to convince me that I have a right to be under the pressure and that is normal that I feel stress because we are gonna move again and we don’t know yet where and I will have to quit job. I will have to say goodbye to city (from which I didn’t expect lot but it brought a lot), to my friends (especially hard will be say goodbye to Ina & Csilla), to my co-workers (Judith, Anni, Susi, David, Kathy, Pia & of course my sweet boss Katherina), to my grumpy but always helpful neighbours Helga & Tomas, to my favourite restaurant (Niko) and to my beautiful nature in Strombach & Halb insel.
The other side in me (definitely positive one) is talking to me that I have to stay calm, that change will bring something even more better in our life, that I have to be supportive for Igor because so it will be easier for both of us. The positive side is showing me that I cannot always control everything, that sometimes I have to go with the flow and have a faith in the fact that everything happens for the reason and that even if we don’t have a club yet – that is just because on the best things we always have to wait a little bit longer.
What do you think which side in me will win?
The one that I feed more – and I decided to feed the positive one – I had a talk with myself (sounds weird but it’s always so helpful – they call it “self talk”) and convince myself that I am in stress because I am a control freak and that it drives me crazy that I don’t know what will happen in next few months, where I am gonna live, which country will be, will I have to learn new language, will it be good for Igor… and that in real I don’t need all this (pointless) stress and pressure – because it doesn’t really matters where we move – it is up to me – how I will feel in new city/country/club and me, myself I am the only one that can make myself happy and satisfied. No matter where we go and no matter when we will know, everything will be just okay like always and everything will pass just smoothly. (But anyway cross your fingers that we get great club in great city).
In next column read about: Plan for packing, what to keep – what to throw, Goodbye party for co-workers & one for players, sorting things for summer break and sorting things that I won’t need, bureaucracy, apartmant, …